Peace beyond Understanding
A couple of days ago, a friend of mine said to me, “Oh I am so sorry to hear about your losses. If you want to scream and get upset you should do it. You can, you know, because of what is happening. “ I listened but only nodded my head. “If you want scream, you can scream at me it will make you feel better. Yell at me if you like,” she continued. Her words initially felt good and justified the feelings I had on the surface; tempted to follow her instructions, my heart wanted to yell out and scream, “Why did momma and my puppy leave me?” (After my mom passed away, a week later, my lovely little black terripoo also died.) Coincidence, I don’t know, but I told myself to be angry as my friend told me. I wanted to be angry, sad, confused, etc., and take it out on anyone that came into the office smiling and happy. If I am not happy, why should they be happy; everyone should wallow in my pain; it is only right.
I could not get angry though, because it was no one’s fault they left me. The fall of Adam caused trials, tribulations, and death to come upon everything in the world; animals, the environment, and man, and the god of this world makes sure of that. Do I feel that god is punishing me? No, God is good, and life happens. When my faith is most tested, and I hold firm to God’s word all things work themselves out and good comes to me.
“Am I out of God’s will?” I ask myself. I don’t think so because my heart does not convict me; so I will not allow anyone to tell me this is true, and neither should you when trials come against you. 1st John 21-22 tells me, “21 Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God 22 and receive from him anything we ask, because we keep his commands and do what pleases him.” So I believe in comfort, regardless of what people try to tell me; my heart knows I am where God wants me. Like me, let their convicting words fall upon deaf ears; it is not our fault
God has given me a supernatural peace beyond understanding to accept both of their deaths, and when depression or stress attacks me; I fall back on the word of God. The words of Jesus when he spoke to his disciples in John 14: 27 ”Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” The world gives me peace when everything around me looks rosy and going my way. However, in the times of bleakness, I draw on the peace of God; he gives me peace beyond understanding to accept these things. He is true to his word, the peace he provides fills my heart, and I can continue to encourage others through my stories of faith and trust in him. I have been there. I know that regardless of how the circumstances appear, he is with me, comforting me. Hebrews 13: 5 tells me to be content, “….Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”
Even in all of the chaos and sadness around me, blessings are still pouring in. My second book is finished, and my first is being published. God is good. Through my writings, my heart accepts the loss of my dear mother, and by encouraging others to hold on to God’s love, I lift myself up. Therefore I want to tell everyone, that God is faithful. When trails come against you, let his love fill your heart, and he will give you also a supernatural peace beyond any understanding. Yes, it hurts, but not as bad when God fills you with peace; he helps you to go on, and when you believe in him, you do not need to depend upon the world’s ways of giving peace.
Finally, yesterday, God lead me to the perfect puppy, one that needs me as much as I need it. Meet Tomaxena.
Peace beyond Understanding