It is wet and gloomy outside, but my heart, mind, and soul, are filled with the love of God, and to him be all the glory and honor. Yesterday, I found out two of my books will be coming out in November, Porcelain Doll” and “Treacherous Deceit;” of course I am undergoing an array of emotions, those which one experiences when something new and exciting is occurring one’s life. My husband, as always is lifting me up in this exciting time, and all is well with everything around me; however, as in all things, when it is good, bad always tries to come in and take away the joy.
Only just a child in my faith, spiritual walk with God, and still in this human form, I run into situations which catch me off guard, leaving me mentally stunned. Having seen an acquaintance at the office, we made plans to have lunch soon; she always stands me up, so I had no thought she would show this time, and I agreed. To my surprise, she called me the next day and began to cackle on. For some reason, she had decided it was her responsibility to create success in me and push me along in pursuing my writing profession; of course, she was unaware of the two books scheduled for release in November, and still unaware I presume because she only heard her words. Not having any meaningful relationship with this woman, I find myself at fault for even listening to her words of garbage.
She told me, “there was meeting in town this week; I think you should attend because it would help you…”
In turn, I responded with “I can’t, I am very busy.” Which I am, because with my writing, my blog, insurance work, and family, it leaves only a few hours in the evening to relax, and sometimes I do not even get them. She continued her meaningless chatter, and instead of me stopping her, I let her continue, trying not to be impolite and interrupt her while she spoke, which was my mistake; I will explain why later.
“Well Zola, I have two friends that are excellent writers, and you two don’t know how to help yourself, so I will have to do it for you. I don’t mind,” she told me; her inflection, dripping with honey, was sweet and kindly, but even as she spoke I knew her words were poison to my soul.
Okay, how does she know I am an excellent writer, she has never read any of my work, not even my blog. So again, I should have stopped her. Nevertheless, I let her continue giving me her opinion on how inept I was. I finally replied, “I have my faith, and I am following the path God has set out for me.” Now, surely she would shut up, and we can talk about the weather or something. No, this was not in her plan.
“I understand that, but…” she started talking. Everything was going good, but then three words later the But came, and she proceeded to tell me how God was not enough. No longer able to take her faithless words, I interrupted her; we said our goodbyes, and I hung up the phone.
All right to the point
First, let me say I am not against any conferences or anything that a person believes he or she needs to achieve his or her goals; however, I can tell you, I have been to many types of schools, colleges, and universities. I have read the self-help books, all kinds; I will not mention any names, but none of these writing seemed to help me. Only God gave me the courage to get off antidepressants and reach forward for the unknown.
Yes, go to college, church, school, university and learn from others, but when God has called us to his job, then I honestly feel that daily we must allow the Holy Spirit to direct us along God’s pathway. John, a disciple of Jesus said, “1 John 2:27 (KJV) 27 But the anointing which ye have received of him abideth in you, and ye need not that any man teaches you: but as the same anointing teacheth you of all things, and is truth, and is no lie, and even as it hath taught you, ye shall abide in him.” I have heard of many talented, professional people confess that they let God lead them to victory; some never spent a day in college or university, and still there were others that did. The key is, God’s guidance teaches us, and directs us along the path we should take.
This acquaintance did not believe in God’s divine guidance, at least it did not sound like she did. She and the many others who do not believe, still do not alter God’s plan for our life; however, we can allow their unbelief to swallow us up. This is my second point; I listened when I should have cut her off from the start. So, what was the harm in that? Over the course of the day, I heard her words of unbelief over and over in my mind, disconcerting me for most of the day. “Maybe she is right,” I told myself. So now I fought with myself; doubt trying to take over, telling me that everything was wrong; I had to spend time in God’s word reading his promises over and over to stop the thoughts of disbelief.
Genesis 1:3 (KJV) “And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.”
Words have power, and as she spoke to me, although I said to myself she is crazy, later her words grew within me, occupying my thought when there were much more important things which needed my attention.
Words are like a bead of water dropped onto a piece of paper towel; the drop does not stay its original size but swells getting bigger and bigger; if the drop is large enough, it soaks the entire piece of material. So-called well-meaning words have destroyed many people. It just seems that people are insensitive to the feeling of others some time, and although, the speakers themselves have undoubtedly been hurt by scornful words themselves, for some reason, it seems impossible for some to contain their tongue.
Sometimes we have to listen to things we do not particular care to hear. However, these words minister to our hearts and encourage, not upset us. Constructive words of criticism are edifying, but words that wound the heart and harm the soul, we must ignore as much as possible. I think it is important to understand the difference between them, and when they are cutting words, do not listen. If not given a choice, and we are subjected to hurtful or discouraging words, we should quote God’s promises within ourselves, filling our minds with His truth; this blots out the cruel words, and we do not hear them.
Matthew 16:6 (KJV) “Then Jesus said unto them, Take heed and beware of the leaven of the Pharisees and of the Sadducees.” Jesus warned us, to be careful of what we hear, especially when we have a dream, or know that God has placed a desire within our heart. And when we know that He has, we should trust Him continually and hold on to God’s word regardless of what we hear.
Proverbs 3:5-6 (KJV) 5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart;
and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him,
and he shall direct thy paths.